My husband and my best friend?

You are in a pickle! Your husband is weighing out his life at a cross roads. It is no different than the man that has a mid-life crisis. It takes a lot for a man to tell the wife he loves that he is dis-content or is having feelings that do not include her. Your husband did that. It is common for a gay man to marry trying to fit into the societal mix. While I am not saying this is the situation it is a consideration. Getting away for a week or two weeks is the sign of a break. It is OK to break down that is normal but be rational at the same time. What can you do? There is nothing that you can do to prevent or control what is happening. It is time to love your husband with all your heart and pray that he can make sense of his life. The hardest thing you have to face is his return and how you will feel that he left. It is obvious that he felt he could not think through his dilemma with you. Trust him until you have no reason to. Be prepared for things to change in your life. Good Luck.